... And then I died inside...

Holy fucking shit mother fucking argh...

Okay. I just ran into my ex - the one I'm still in love with and just realized that fact all the more seeing him for the first time since he left... God it hurts. I just want to cry harder than Ive cries in months. It makes me realize just how lost I really am without him.
And now I'm stuck on a bus, alone, with some person that smells just like him and all I can think about is how alone I am and that he's not here anymore and never will be...

I just don't know what to do now...