... Scnoochy boochies...

Right, so... I have one more essay todo and then it's smooth sailing, exams, and then my trip to Japan!!

Oh... And I'm seeing someone.. ^_^

... Rain ...

And it is. Heavily. Raining. It's very dreary indeed at UNSW today, yet here I am, 9-7, classes, lectures and talks to students sitting courses I've already completed. Joyous. No, honestly. Thrilling.
Although, I suppose, as you can see from the image above ^^
And from the fact that I am currently updating my blog - I am not working overly hard.

I should be, however, with over 30 kanji to learn, a History essay and exams ever looming, I should be nose-in-books studying, but I'm not. 'Why?' I hear you ask... 'Don't you want good grades, Sam? You're smart, apply yourself!' You all scream. Well the answer comes in two parts, and is quite simple:
1. I am preoccupied. That is, I have far too much going on in my brain to concentrate enough to retain any of the information were I to read it at this current time.
2. It's raining. And who honestly feels like doing work while it's raining? Seriously?

And so it is. I am having a day of mass-procrastination.

And in other news today - meet Chi - my new Kitsune friend, my little fox inkage specially designed for me by my great friend Justin. Oh yes - he is quite the artist. I went into Illustrated Man in the city last night with Justin, Jeremy and Craig. Craig got a gorgeous owl on his forearm, which took substantially longer than my little friend, yet I am completely happy with him. 15 minutes and a minute amount of pain - and he will sit on my shoulder forever. :D

So, I should probably stop writing this blog now, and read something, or study something, or write something. But chances are I wont. So, for now then.
- Sami xx

... Puppies ...

t's always the same.. the guys that are interested are never the ones you want, and you just can't tell whether you should give it a go or wait around for Mr. Amazingly-perfect to come along (or come back).

I'm feeling so confused right now as to what I should actually do, or not do, or whether I should just ignore the whole thing.

But lets face it, I need to move on from the past...

... Only Hope ...

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

And I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my apathy
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

... Rejection ...

And when it hits, it's like a bomb has just punched square through your chest and then you're gone. Lost in an oblivion of pain and aching and anger and hate.

I hate you.

... Stuffs ...

So, this is how my week (or rest of..) seems to be set out:

* Watching Bleach back from the first season <3
* Reading MY books, and not Beloved (evil)
* Watching She's the Man, instead of reading Twelfth Night...
* Maybe doing some Jap revision...
* Sleeping, sleeping, sleeping
* Possibly getting new ink :D

And yes. I felt the need to post this because our English lecturer is soooooooooooooo boring.

... Smell-Memory ...

It's totally amazing how a single solitary smell can make you feel a million things at once. How it can take you back in time, make you remember things as though you were still there.

I'm starting to get sick of this concept of smell-memory. I hate remembering those things that the smells remind me of. I hate feeling those feelings again. I'm trying to move on from that past and the constant reminders are making it extremely difficult.

I know that deep down I don't want to let him go. But he's gone, so what choice do I have but to try and forget? He wants to forget...

And so I'm thinking... maybe I should wear nose plugs everywhere?